Different kinds of Death
By Julia Averbeck
Smashwords Edition
Copyright January 2012, Julia Averbeck
Cover by Julia Averbeck
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Goodbye
Have I said goodbye to you?
When we parted for the last time
Have I said goodbye?
When you had to leave
Have I told you?
That I love you
Before you left
Forever
Have I told you?
That you’ll be
In my heart
Always and forever
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Alone
Please,
I can’t be strong anymore
I have to hide
In the shower to cry
Because otherwise
I would only upset you
But I can’t be strong anymore
It’s just too much
And I feel so alone
So alone
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Time
There is not enough time
No time
Life is too short
Too short
It is here
And then it’s gone
Gone forever
And never to return
Never to return
Never
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Nobody there
Who catches me
When I fall?
There is nobody
Nobody is there
Who comforts me
When I’m sad?
There is nobody
Nobody is there
Who is there for me
When I need someone?
There is nobody
Nobody is there
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What will you do?
What will you do?
When your dreams are dying
And you have no hope
Left for yourself
What will you do?
When time turns against you
And the only thing that you have
Is some seconds left
What will you do?
When the end is upon you
And nobody is there
To hold your hand
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Wherever you are
You look so peaceful
Lying there
But I know well
That it has been a hard journey
Tears stream over my face
Because I know
That I will never
See your eyes again
Never see your smile again
And feel your love for me
I hope you are fine
Wherever you are
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Sad Christmas
It was a sad, sad Christmas
Without you
Close to me
It was a sad, sad Christmas
Without you
Under the Christmas tree
It was a sad, sad Christmas
Without you
Holding my hand
It was a sad, sad Christmas
Without you
In winter wonderland
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Dead inside
I face the end of another year
Without you
But I can’t remember anymore
How long you’re gone
Something died inside me
When you left
And there is this coldness
Cold in my chest
Nobody has been able
To warm my heart again
Since you went away
Away from me
I want to live again
Be a part of the world
But I am dead inside
Forever
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Silence
Silence
Surrounds me
Silence falls down
With the snow
Silence
Is upon me
No sound
Can be heard anymore
Cold
Surrounds me
Cold falls down
With the snow
Cold
Is upon me
It is the last thing
I will feel
Death
Surrounds me
Death falls down
With the snow
Death
Is upon me
As the snowflakes
Cover my face
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Still there
Everything is still
As you’ve left it
Every minute I think
You’ll come through that door
You still feel
So close to me
But I know
That you’re so far away
I still hope
You’ll stand in front of me
When I turn around
But you’re not there
Never will be there
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Empty
Empty rooms
Clocks ticking loudly
Dusty surfaces
Windows blind from time
Empty streets
Silent neighbourhoods
Brown grass
Old toys scattered
Empty world
Without life
So long gone
Nearly forgotten
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Belong
Dying hopes
Dying dreams
Lie shattered at your feet
Lonely days
Lonely nights
Broken pieces of your life
No one here
No one there
But you don’t care
She has left
She is gone
Where do you belong?
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Goodbye old year
The old year is over
And I know that
I’ll miss it soon
The good and the bad things
The happy and sad
Are all in the past now
A new year ahead of me
New beginnings
But also new ends
Goodbye old year
I’ll miss you much
But you’ll stay in my memory
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Regeneration
I can see the fear on you face
Feel it in the air
And I want to hold your hand
But you won’t let me
There is this glow around you
It spreads over your body
But you hold my gaze
And I only see your eyes
I don’t want to go
Are your last words to me
Before you change
Into someone else
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Death rides
Death rides across
The sky tonight
The moon shines bright
He finds his way
Easily through town and
Over mountains and hills
His scythe is always in his hand
His horse obeys his wills
Can you hear him coming?
He comes for you
And don’t try running
He will follow you
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Nobody
“Nobody” they shout
Every time you cross the street
But you don’t want to show them
How much it hurts
To hear this word
“Nobody” their faces say
When they pass you in a shop
But you don’t want to show them
That every time
A part of you dies
You want to be “Somebody”
So badly
But you don’t have a chance
When everybody thinks
That you’re a “Nobody”
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Breaking apart
I try to be strong
But I can’t
I’m breaking apart
I try to move on
But it feels wrong
I don’t know where I belong
I try to forget you
But the memories are there
I’m staring at your chair
I’ve tried to be with you
But I can’t
I’m still at the start
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Silent tears
A silent tear
Runs down my face
When I see you standing there
Beside my grave
I watch your face
It looks so sad
But I can’t come back
Lie next to you in bed
You’ve played a dangerous game
You know that now
I walk away from you
With one last bow
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Giving up
She gave up her life
To be with you
She gave up her dreams
So yours could come true
She gave you everything
But you wanted more
She promised to try her best
But you showed her the door
She begged and cried
You just turned around
She gave up everything for you
Now she lies here on the ground
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Darkness
Loneliness is my companion
Death follows in my wake
Always alone
Always running
Centuries pass
Time has no meaning
My heart turns to stone
Who comes to save me?
I am the hero
I am the saver
But who saves me?
Who saves me from the darkness?
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