Dream, Chase, Love
German Alcala
Published by German Alcala at Smashwords
Copyright 2010 German Alcala
Poem Listing
Poem 3 - Dear Heart, Shut Up Already!
Poem 4 - Just Fell For The Enemy
Poem 5 - Hate Your Words, Love You Though
Poem 7 - Stupid, Sweet, And Smart
Poem 8 - War Against Loving Flesh
Poem 9 - Keep Your Lips Sealed
Poem 16 - To A Screeching Halt
Poem 22 - Make The Days Longer
Poem 23 - Help Me Help You Trust
Poem 24 - Realizing Your Skin Exists
Poem 29 - Despite A Few Details
Poem 30 - Your Lips Look Better Sealed
Poem 33 - Hallowed By Thy Name
Poem 34 - That Which Has No Name
Poem 36 - As Winter Comes Around
Poem 37 - Once Summer’s Heat Arrives
Poem 38 - When Control Is Lost
Poem 39 - Touch Me Where It’s Naughty
Poem 41 - When My Arms Hold You
Poem 42 - Where’s My Heart Of Stone?
1
[Dream]
Oh, what a sweet young loving boy
So mature for his age I got it bad
I wish I had some tactic to deploy
Oh, how I want that strapping lad
I’ll dream about him if I don’t go after him
I’ll dream about him day and night
For to me his voice is a soft pleasant hymn
I’ll dream about him with all my might
Per chance to dream with him I’ll close my eyes
And whisper his name softly until I sleep
I’ll sleep with his name coming in sighs
Then simply dream of us being in an ocean’s deep
Oh, how I dream of what we’d do if we were
We would laugh and talk for hours on end
And I’d play with his hair’s blonde curl
Oh, if I could at least be his distant friend
For now I guess I’ll dream about his eyes of blue
I’ll hold onto my pillow with all my might
For now closing my eyes and dreaming is all I can do
I simply don’t know if, for him, I’d fight
2
[The Easiest Peach]
I’m a sweet little boy if you got to know me
I never curse or speak above a whisper publicly
And should a nice boy come around the highway
I’m not hard to astound on any given day
You see I’m a very simple boy with feelings
I’m not a fool; I’m one of few noble human beings
Other boys require money and material gifts
They want items and to talk on phones as time drifts
I’m never blinded by love or lose my reason
Yet, if a boy were to work hard enough I’d sweeten
I’m too easy to amaze or easy to impress for sure
I’m the easiest peach. It’s amazing I’m still pure.
My little heart twirls and spins inside my chest
And I do beg it to take a minute to simply rest
Yet it insists that it wants another heart to spin with
Oh, it’s so easy to amaze me. Loneliness is now a myth
The easiest peach to astound and then tear out the pit
Yet there’s a thing I like about being struck by love’s hit
3
[Dear Heart, Shut Up Already!]
I fear
Oh dear
Heart of mine
Gossip to quietly dine
Of emotions running wild
There’s nothing here that’s mild
I’ll soon go insane of love and self hate
There’s an emotion I have come to create
There is here an organ that I’ve grown to so hate
What a fickle creature I have been now of late
A creature no one can ever love nor hate
My organ of pain and love is my heart
How I wish to tear it apart
Dearest Heart of mine,
What bloody will is thine?
To leave me broken and alone here?
So love can now give me unending fear?
To make me hate my very own soul and mind
Old and wishing for some happiness I’ll never find
Dear Heart, shut up already ‘fore I die of lonely pain
Please, stop around a sweet boy. Please, be sane
Please, leave my happy loneliness in peace
Before in tears soak my bed’s fleece
Please, shut up already
Heart, now don’t be so bloody heavy
My world is too young for things like this
Heart, please, leave me in peace and unloving bliss
Heart, could you help me win over a boy’s sweet kiss?
I’ve used my mind these days of late but you see
There’s a boy who brings me warmth and joy
I’m scared I’ll be used as some sort of toy
But for now, dear Heart, help me
Because you’ll come to see
Love is a nice blast
While it does last
So come now
Feel an ow
Of love
4
[Just Fell For The Enemy]
Who would have thought that somebody like you
Would be some form of an aspiring republican
That you would be here making me feel so blue
And that you’re actually a devout Christian
How could you do this to me right now of all times?
Right when my heart began to pull away from my chest
And I was thinking of you in loving rhymes
How dare you show me your family’s crest?!
I believed only in your bloody words so sweet
You were using the little charm in your bloody body
To so easily sweep me off my young and trusting feet
Now you release this to me so awfully
I feel like you’ve thrust a jagged knife into my heart
It makes me scream in disbelief and raging anger so strong
I am only two moments from falling apart
The fact that my heart still longs for you is what is so wrong!
You’ve branded my heart and my mind so thoroughly
I believe everything you say, and I won’t believe what I see
I can’t believe myself I fell for the disgusting enemy
It’s a sickening thrill that you have brought to me
All the things you say against me and my beliefs and rights
It feels good to know that you love me enough not to lie
Bringing me all sorts of dirty and self contradicting nights
Why am I with you still giving this thing a bloody try?
I just fell for the enemy and I cry and yell in absolute anger
I fell for the enemy who’s every thought and voice of reason
Is to me a polar opposite and to my heart a grave danger
I feel that being around you is a form of the highest treason
Oh, what am I still doing here chasing you and all your mess?
How could I think that you would like me or I ever love you?
I just fell for the enemy and how all of this brings me such stress
I just fell for the enemy of my people. What will I ever do?
5
[Hate Your Words, Love You Though]
You are the polar opposite of everything I believe in
Oh, but I still want your body and to commit such sin
How dare you be so attractive yet so stupid and strange?
If I had a sense of judgment I’d push you away in rage
So, why do your hands caress my back while I kiss your lips?
How is it that we’re here rotating against each other’s hips?
Curse everything that you believe in and may your words die
However, take on me and kiss my lips for I wouldn’t ever lie
How I hate your words and everything that you do stand for
I want to stand by you and stay even if blood hits the floor
My chest could explode of self contradiction and hate for you
Yet if I lost you my world would go gray, and my skin blue
How I hate your words, and somehow to love everything in you
There’s nothing about you I could love in any way that’s true
There are however, a few things I could quickly learn to hate
I hate you, but there’s an affection you have come to create
Shut up, and don’t speak your thoughts for now just kiss me
What’s to come whether hate or love we’ll have to wait to see
6
[Your Arms]
So many men and women have dreamt of it
While other’s waste their lives for such a thing
I wonder what I did to so comfortably sit
Sit in my idea of Heaven while you lovingly sing
Your arms are my reason for living and my bliss
Where I’m rewarded for nothing by your scent
In your arms I have your weak biceps to kiss
We talk of things in life until the sun’s fire is spent
This is where I could spend a million moons
Your arms feel like they could hold me eternally
This is where I can rush to lick my wounds
Even though I doubt I’m here deservingly
The book of Romans and the Book of Mormon
Spoke of Heaven in their many self adoring pages
But I’m in Heaven in the arms of my man
In your arms I could lay and sleep for a million ages
Come rest your chin upon my jet black hair
Wrap your protecting arms around me chest
Let me rest myself on you and breathe your air
In your sweet arms I wish to stay forever pressed
7
[Stupid, Sweet, and Smart]
Everything you are angers me so much
But there is that something in your touch
I might go insane, but you’re the person
Who helps me somehow see any reason
You are stupid. Your words are all lies
Yet, you’re sweet with only a few tries
You’re smart, and with you my heart flies
You’re so stupid, sweet, and smart
Your voice of no reason has my heart
How could you be such a mixture of things?
Oh how your stupidity has me on strings
I’m your little puppet and I know you’re smart
Smart you control me. Sweet you have my heart
Such a mixture might make me fall apart
Such a sweet and pleasant boy you are to me
Obsessed with video games that I hate to see
Modest when it comes to your precious looks
Sweetly you’ve got me nailed by your hooks
Such an evil bitter sweet taste you bring to me
To remove your evil hooks upon my heart I plea
Or I might push your hooks tighter into me
Stupid for you have nothing intelligent to say
Am I some sort of game you like to play?
Sweet for you make me blush and say sweet rhymes
How you make me contradict myself a million times
Now to contradict my own beliefs once more
I’ll say that you’re smart with a mind I adore
So sweet that if I lost you I’d hit the floor
So stupid I should make you walk out the door
8
[War Against Loving Flesh]
I’ve come to learn that you’re horrid
The contrast between us is almost morbid
And your thoughts are so vile and wrong
How is it that this love for you is so strong?
We are two people who should hold bitterness
Should I wage a war against you in happiness?
A war against loving flesh using arms that once held you
A war with which I would happily execute and go through
War against loving flesh is something that you would win
Then I’d rise to destroy you like victory had never been
In the end I’d win a fight, for you may be stronger than me
But my heart would turn to steel and vanquish you easily
For now we’ll quietly agree to disagree on a silent night
Knowing that if not careful we’d hate each other in might
A war against loving flesh will not occur
As long as our patience for each other is sure
There is peace still to enjoy in your arms
As I ignore your mind and focus on your charms
9
[Keep Your Lips Sealed]
What you did is unforgivable
My mercy is now impossible
You can do nothing to heal this
This is an act I cannot dismiss
Keep your lips sealed and help yourself
For any word you speak risks your health
I am immune to your blasted eyes
I am immune to your ridiculous lies
So, keep quiet before you lose a ball
Keep your lips sealed they are my downfall
Leave my sight before I’m rash
And on the floor we both thrash
Don’t use your lips for they are two lies
Don’t make me look into your young eyes
For they are my downfall back to you
And then you’d leave me lonely and blue
I’m not a simple toy that you can chew
Your love is a lie and your mouth is too
Keep your lips sealed, and please walk off
Keep them sealed, and don’t make me scoff
I will tell you to use your best defense
Right now your biggest help is silence
Keep your poisonous word quiet
‘Fore I ensue a vengeful one man riot
10
[Not Better Than You]
What was I thinking when we kissed?
I thought we wouldn’t be left so pissed.
Your words and all your trash has tired me
I’ve had enough of your stubborn brutality
My only regret now is letting you in so far
So, I must beat you out with a metallic bar
I’ll let your lies fall away like sand
May your people rejoice throughout the land
Let you forget all the love that I gave
So that my heart doesn’t entirely cave
I know that my days without you will be dark
Only at first, and then you’ll only be one more mark
I’m not saying that I’m better than you
Yet, I know that I never let you go blue
However, you insisted on saving your face
Now I’ll forget you. You won’t leave a trace
So go off and live in your ignorant bliss
You know you won’t get a farewell kiss
May your family forget my name soon
I’ll be like the shine of the night’s moon
I’ll touch your skin only a moment so slight
Which will be to expose the filth of the night
Then the sun will rise throughout the lands
Assuring you never again feel my small hands
My thoughts were foolish, young, and desperate
I wasn’t keeping wisdom and feelings separate
So, my heart felt the consequences of my idiocy
Now I realize you never took me seriously
You played with my emotions without remorse
And here’s the simple message I now endorse
May your houses burn to the ground
And your screams be clear and sound
Let Angels nod their head in shame to you
May destiny leave you nothing good to do
And should you be dyeing of boredom and misery
Consider it a historic piece of man’s moral victory
What you did to me was an unspeakable act
So, this is how I now lovingly do react
May fires lick at your hands in the night
And may your world fill with horrid fright
I’ll see you in hell’s beauty when I die
Seeing you suffer will make my heart fly
My screams in the dark and tears of heartbreak
Are a thing that destiny will personally take
Turn it over to the hands of time and insanity
They’ll hear my wish and treat you with brutality
The brutality that you felt nice to give me
Your tears will be lights in the dark I wish to see
Then you’re world will fall around you and leave you
Like Adolf Hitler you’ll be left cold and blue
You’ll want to commit suicide to end it all
You know that if you died I would be crushed and fall
So, may you live long and healthy, you heartless pig
For you broke my young heart like a fallen twig
I don’t have a mind to say I’m better than you
You should go live your life. Leave me here blue.
On the day of your wedding in twenty years
I have foreseen no hair will frame your ears
On the day you die I have foreseen in ninety years
The people will shed absolutely no tears
I won’t say that I’m better than you. We don’t compare
You took my young trust and turned it into a cruel snare
May your bridges burn and your moneys fall away
Once you come back to me begging forgiveness one day
I’ll look down at you and say the truth. I forgave you
Decades ago I forgave you. You only get what is due
11
[The Spark of June]
I bumped into you on a hot June day
You had just happened to stray my way
I sensed from your smile you were gay
And your name was so nice to say
It was the spark of June for me and you
From then on I would never again be blue
Now we skip across the dirt path under the sun
I gaze at your handsome smile as we slowly run
Holding onto your fingers which hold onto mine
Reveling in the feel of your young skin so fine
In the spark of June I can skip for hours in bliss
Then when we come to a halt we meet in a kiss
Even when you told me you would be gone soon
I didn’t cry or make a frown on our last afternoon
Now you fly away from my city to your farm
Without leaving my heart in any form of harm
The spark of June, oh, I can still feel it on my lips
As my memory doesn’t allow it to leave me in slips
I wait for the day for you to come back to me
To manifest a love I wish to once more see
The day on which I’ll hold your hand and smile
So we may skip through the fields for over a mile
The spark of June will return before I know
Bringing back my cheek’s happy red glow
12
[Your Charm]
The charm of you
Amazes me
Your eyes’ blue hue
Intoxicates me
Your manly charm
An unforgiving force
My poor heart’s harm
Is the idea of our divorce
For in my mind we love
Yes, in my mind we kiss
And we will be together above
For your presence is bliss
13
[Chase]
How could I ever contain myself from you?
If I didn’t chase after you what else what I do?
So, if you don’t want me I will persist
I’ll do everything so you can’t resist
I’ll chase after you until my legs shake
You’ll have to learn to love me because I’m not leaving
Should you tell me to scram I won’t break
Because my feelings aren’t receding
I feel it’s been ages since I said how I felt
So, let me say you’re a hell of a catch, dear
Even if you’re not all that hot and svelte
You’re to me like the finest cut meat of dear
So, I’ll chase after you with all my might
I’ll follow you to the highest mountain tops
One day I’ll hold you with love into the night
And you’ll stop leaving me behind in slops
14
[Without Resting]
Oh geez what darling eyes that boy has
I want to know what he likes in a gal
I wonder if I might make a little pass
He’s so sweet, I think I shall
However, should he deny me how will I live?
Should a creature of such beauty not like me
I think I would die and never want to revive
There is a love here that I want him to see
I’ll pursue him without resting even a minute
And should he slap and yell at me to leave
To failure I won’t allow myself to submit
So, I’ll wipe away my tears on my dirty sleeve
May he kick at me and yell my name in hate
I’ll be a fool and simply think of what I did wrong
And then more words of love I’ll demonstrate
Even sing to him some sort of love song
I’ll cry and worry for him without rest
No matter how many times he’ll shoo me away
For his love I’ll stand up to time’s test
I’m after for him without resting all night and day
15
[When I Get My Yes]
I’ve tried everything loving in the book
Still you don’t give me a second look
It’s not enough to wait for you for hours
Or give you, over me, absolute powers
I still must say all the right things to you
And hope that you answer me sweet and true
I have dark circles from waiting so long
Now, I feel like I am being treated wrong
The strange part of this affair is however
That if you asked I’d still wait for you forever
I have asked you only once to take my hands
And you know that the question still stands
You can make me wait a million years
That I won’t last is one of my only fears
So, I’m dying to see when I’ll get my Yes
And when I get my yes I’ll love you in a mess
I’ll show you all the ways I can care for you
And show that with me you’ll never be blue
When I get my yes I’ll show you all your traits
And let open my love’s flood gates
When I get my yes, I’ll fall from my feet
And tell you I love you because you’re so sweet
You’re sweet as a million pieces of chocolate mints
That one takes and swallows with sour patch kids
I love you because you know exactly what to do
And exactly what to say to pull me out of any blue
So, when I get my yes I’ll lift you in my arms
And kiss you away from all your life’s harms
When I get my yes I’ll stay with you for life
And help you in all your life’s horrid strife
16
[To A Screeching Halt]
How things rushed to amazing heights
Nobody ever told me the rules of love
I didn’t know to be coy with my feelings
So, I told you and acted upon my heart
Now I think I shred all my chances apart
So, I’ll ask you if for a while we could
Possibly bring all these matters that are out
Back in, and to a screeching halt
To turn back the hands of time
To start again from the click we had
I would be smarter should we go back
I know very well that I’m just a fool
Trust me when I say I feel like a tool
So, let’s bring everything to a screeching halt
Start from the line: “Hey, what’s your name?”
And give me the chance be a little suave
17
[Love]
There isn’t much I know about love humans at all
Just that I feel strongly for somebody and I fall
What strange creature humans are and always been
We connect with each other so tightly it should be sin
I don’t know if I’ve ever felt love but in my mind
It’s something I dearly crave to one day find
How I dream, chase, and then connect with another
Is something that is strange it leaves a bother
Love, what a strange emotion to be spoken of
So many humans who blame love on a God above
While others speak of it as if speaking of a game
Do we all feel love in a way that’s the same?
I say “No”, and thusly whatever it is I feel
I can call love without any repeal
That is my outlook on love and matters of such
Love. I actually care about it very much.
18
[Jelly Beans]
Jelly beans all of such beautiful colors spill
I see your eyes looking at them in a thrill
I stare at you and with joy I now fill
Jelly beans so sweet and surprisingly small
We grab them and throw them up so tall
Catch them in your teeth as they fall
Jelly beans from an All Organics Store across town
All the money they did cost me gives me a frown
You make me richer than a king with a crown
Jelly beans start to roll across the floor
For we lay against the bedroom door